My name is Jessica (Jess) Darnell. This is my
new blog. I have started three or four different blogs in the last year and have not stuck to any of them.
It’s a really bad habit of mine, I’m afraid, and it goes back quite a while. I’ve always loved to keep journals…I just never write in them. So far, blogging has been the same story.
This time, it’s different.
See, I’m making some changes.
I have thus far led a pretty great life, all things considered. I was a straight-A student from pre-school through high school, graduated as Valedictorian, and during all those years I was involved in a crap ton of extracurricular activities, most of which I excelled at. I got a full tuition scholarship to
what I thought was my dream university and went in trying to double major in biology and music, thinking I would emerge as a doctor who moonlighted (moonlit?) as a professional singer.
…and then I actually got to college. Things started changing pretty quickly, and they haven’t really stopped changing since.
It’s kind of a long story. But to keep it short, after three years, I ended up…well, lost. Don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t trade the friendships I’ve made or the things I’ve learned for anything. I’ve had a great time at my university, really–even if I don’t always agree with certain things. But I’m a very different person than I was when I started, and a lot has happened. And…
I just don’t know.
I’m tired and I just don’t know. Those are my two most-uttered phrases these days.
Maybe I’ll explain things someday, or on a series of days, in a series of posts. But right now, I want to start this for my sake, if nothing else.
People keep telling me that it’s okay to take a path that differs from the norm. For the longest time I followed the “normal” path without veering in the slightest, but I’m starting to believe that it might be okay to forge my own trail. So that’s what I’m going to try to do.
Here goes nothing. Or something.
We shall see.